I'd change in a heart beat if I could but thats impossible. My fandom is deeply ingrained in me from the time I was 5 years old and went to elementary school with Melvin Renfro (Mel Renfros son) RIP--lived down the street from the practice facility on forest lane, got to know the players by hanging out after practice and getting autographs, dumpster diving for helmets, pads, jerseys, etc, obessively watching and living and dying with them win or lose.
I'm screwed because no other team can replicate and replace the bond formed in my youth so all I can do now is be bitter over what I've lost and am now stuck with and why I rarely watch anymore because it just makes me too damn angry
here's some pics from my youth (not me with Harry Martin), wish I had kept more:
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